It got to the point at one time I started to forget who I am. I am a child of GOD!!!! I am a uniquely and wonderfully made daughter of the king. There are days that I don't feel that way. There are days that I feel like the chamber maid of the King (for those of you who are not into history the chamber maid was the one who used to get the chamber pot -otherwise known as the pee pee pot- in the morning from the bedrooms pre-plumbing. They were the ones who had to go and dump out the morning's urine. )
I often forget that I am a vessel that was created for noble use and that looks different on me that it does on everyone else. It doesn't make me worse or better- just different. And ask Arby's, "Different is good!". I know that I have things that I need to work on about myself, but so does everyone living on this Earth. The thing that I have to remember, that we all have to remember, is that we won't be perfected until Christ returns or we are caught up into Heaven.
The difficult thing is that others seem to expect perfection from us. I know they seem to expect it from me. They can be cruel when perfection is not met. Sometimes the people who are supposed to love and accept you the most are the ones who are the most critical of you. They, quite frankly, do not matter. Not in the scheme of reality. I mean they are important and we have to love them, but it is not their opinion that is important. It is God's. When we fall short, when we don't do things the way that they would want us to, it doesn't really matter as long as we are doing things the way God wants us to.
Each of us is made uniquely. We are all rough around the edges, it is through our trials that we get refined. As we grow and are challenged, we become more like Christ. That is not an overnight process. That is not an instantaneous thing. We slowly mold into "little Christs" or "Christians" (little Christ is what Christian means). When someone picks at a personality flaw, sometimes it is a character defect that God is working on. We can take that and pray about it and allow God to create in us a more refined person. Sometimes that is just a part of our personality that God has made us to be. Just because someone else is annoyed by your shyness, your outgoing personality, your sense of humor or lack there of, doesn't make it wrong or a bad thing. Their dislike is their issue. Who are they to question the way God has made you?
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, your works are wonderful and I know that full well. Psalm 139:14. We are created just the way God wants us to be. That is what matters. He designed each of us perfectly. And when you are going about your day and someone criticizes you, ask yourself- "Is what I am doing pleasing to God?" If the answer is no- take steps to correct the action. If the answer is yes- then forget what they think and care what God thinks.